MOtivation

Some days I wonder if I will ever be a writer .. an artist.....than I look again and think....



WHy did I ever doubt myself...

want more

Folk lips
unreliable
Minds
unpredictable
Actions
unreasonable
yet they want more
yet they want more

Complaints
constant
Ears closed
mouths
resembles 7-11's
Actions
none taking
Same story never written
yet they want more
yet they want more

As dreams become cloudy
in waking moments
Theirs
Realized in gleaming sunlight
eyes open
in both cases
heart begins to close in one
yet they want more
yet they want more

Final Stage
Soul
dries up
Internal death
External Shell develops
Nothing left
I'm on empty
yet they want more
Mouths water
and more
Stomach growls
and more
more
more
yet they want more

Rough Poetry Drafted right

This is me
my opinion
my verse
my sermon
As records plays
and people be complaining
Saying you will never
see
be
or obtaining

Anything worthwhile
to them
everything I touch
must die
Too bad I'm always dying to live
and you
living to die

Eyes
wide open
Theirs
always shut
Mine keep moving
You still in a runt

The gonzo knife
flowing from the lips
can't cut me
Thought you knew better
You should sharpen up

Slick lips
stale tongues
too bad I can't hear nothing that not fresh enough
Sorry
no voice tones
Strange dialect
can't hurt me

Yet Sadly
I'm still contemplating
On their wordplay
exiting their mouths
affecting my Temporal Lobe
every day

Haters voices never leave
So I freeze
Time
Period
Moment
Age
Year
Date
As if I was one of batmans' nemesis

Misunderstood or Miserably Standing

As the world changes around
you
stand miserably
Waiting for a change without doing it
Waiting for tunities without opting for them
Hand out awaiting
Voices needed
But you can't
Change
You complain
Blame without any shame or progress
No action
No reason
No compromises
Heart forgotten
Lonely and Cold
You Miserably Stood
and did Nothing
and Missed the chance of Standing

Reading Writing and Getting it together

So Life is never easy so why should I complain about it. So I decided to make some serious changes in my life. So this is my check list

• Focus on my Writing- I have to write on all my blogs, magazines assignments, and freelance assignment everyday. This will mean that I have to get focus on my career ambitions and not others reactions to them. So I will go to the Library and work at least 5 days a week. A tip I got from Russell Simmons book. You should definitely read this for motivation and success!
  

• Get fit - I finally am taking some action and walking. I don't know what was taking me so long but now I am finally on track. Hopefully the pound will melt along with my procrastination issues.

• Money Issues and Getting an Education - Getting my finances in order is easier said than done but I have some big things in the works so hopefully the money will start flowing because my hustle is ready. I am finally going back to college but I still have to get my finances together before I step foot into higher education. I have to look into some scholarships too! Wish me luck!
  

• Wedding Bells and Dress Hell- If one more person ask me about my wedding dress I am going to scream. Seriously, I want to focus on getting healthy and getting my money up before I see my cash leave my account. I just saying! I am getting the wedding favors and my bridal party together. Wish me luck!
  

Goals, DReam, Beach, and Sand

I had such a relaxing, silly, drama full weekend. Yes, I don't know how a person can do this but I did! Man, I went to a club at the shore called Madison! Well, I think it is called Madison. Anyway, it was a nice club but the music was not on point. Some people were acting crazy. I am trying no to go into details but some ladies were acting very foolish in the club. Otherwise, I chilled and had some silly moments with my family.

Then I got to go to the shore. I miss the shore. Once you are ashore baby, you never go back. I hope that I will make it in the writing industry so I can move back to the beach with the sand in my toes and my eyes on the water.
The city life is not for me. Great to visit, even to explore for a year or two but not to live. Just me. I love the city for the beauty and creativity in it. You have to be harder to live in the city. To survive in the city. Your skin has to be thick and your dreams untouchable. I just not there yet. I wonder of I ever will! Only time will tell!

Sick today

I hate being sick! I mean I am always sick. If it is not my allergies, it is my asthma. If it is not my asthma than My sinuses are going bonkers! It does not help that I do not have any insurance like many Americans! Now I have to go all the way home just to go to the doctors that doe snot cost an arm and a leg! This is crazy. Just for a doctor's visit, I have to let go of my entire pay check! Really, America, Really! I know Obama is trying to get universal health care but I doubt it will see the light of day!

I hate sick days, it make me realize whats going on in the world! Sometime I wish I had a spaceship so I can get the hell up out of here! Lmao!

Writing for Me or You?

I never thought that being a writer would be hard. This is not implying that writing is not fun nor full of benefits. Just stating that it is hard because you have to keep the interest of your audience. The only issue I am facing now is ...who is my audience? For years, I wrote for myself. If others liked it, I was happy but my work was never geared for them. Should my work be geared towards anyone? Would I lose the honesty in my work if I did so? Would it be considered my work anymore?

So who is my audience? Is it me or world? Can it be both? The only thing that I can do is write and hope that others like it or at least respect my opinion. May be easier said that done!

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