Morning Motivation - 11/23/2015

Just MalanB - Soul Saturday "What is my purpose?"

Hello all my Just Malan B readers. 

I know it has been a long time since I have written on JustMalanb but I assure you that I will be posting at least once a week with all my self discovered, need found lessons of life, my journey of reaching my goal weight of 150 pounds, and just living life. 

Today is my very first Soul Saturday post. I actually got the concept from Oprah Winfrey's Super soul Sunday. I believe is just as good of day as any to reflect on life, goals, and challenge. My challenge I am facing today is finding my purpose. I am sure I am not alone in my journey of finding what my grand propose in life is. I am probably one of the few that is setting a deadline in finding it.

You're probably saying "Are you serious you're sitting the deadline for your purpose", Yes I am! We set  deadlines for goals for everyday, so why not set a deadline for a purpose. I mean don't get me wrong I know what I'm good at but I don't know what my purpose in life is. Their is a belief that each person has a purpose, a function that assistant in making the world a better place to live and becoming a better person. So, I decided to find out what my purpose in the arts. Since I was a young girl I've found myself drawn to writing , art and music. I just don't know what which one I should focus on if not all three areas.

My deadline is going to be on my birthday May 2nd.
I think my birthday is the great deadline because it gives me a fresh start on a new career and a new focus on what I have to work towards.

May 2nd = A new age & A new purpose!

Just Malanb Mood Monday: Looking for something new and leaving the old behind

Facing something new is not the always the easiest thing to do. Leaving the past and the drama is even harder but in order for me to truly embrace my talents and fulfill my goals, I know that I cannot be the same person I was yesterday or ten years ago. I can not be sucked into drama and craziness. I can not put all myself into things that will not put me into a place of love, happiness, and success. 

So what do you do when past drama and stupid actions made by people get in the way of looking towards something new? 

I decided to keep on going. There will always be drama, people saying or doing stupid things, and haters. That is the world, it is full of a 85% of wonder and greatness and 15% of just annoyance and b.s! I have to learn to lookfor something new...something great...something of my goals being achieved in the near future and leave the old past, the old drama, the fake people behind.

My new moto - Looking for something new and leaving the old behind

Day 1 Weightloss Journey- Getting my Booty in Gear

For a few years now, I been trying to become a healthier, happier, and more organized person. 

With the healthier part, I have to admit that I been a bit lapse. I would start a tracking my food intake, going to the gym, and even buying at home DVDs when I could not make it to the gym. This plan would work for a few months but I would later get frustrated or make up a excuse to stop. Have a emotional eating spree and than I would start the cycle again. So how can  stop the cycle of giving up...I am finally going to hold myself accountable! Accountable for not sticking to my healthy lifestyle, stop running to food when I have a bad day or feeling depressed. 

So my new plan is to start blogging about becoming a healthier me and at the same time holding myself accountable for what I am doing and not doing to accomplish my goal. This includes posting all my meals for the day everyday, posting what physical activities did, and also posting how I feel. So think of this as a daily journal of my life,the good, the bad, and the ugly!  

My goals

•  To lose 120 lbs - lose at least 20 pounds a month starting October 24th.  
• Eat at least 3-4 serving of vegetables a day
• Use my Richard Simmons Dancing to the Oldies 4 times a week (M-Th)
• Taking a Walk/Stroll twice a week probably in the morning  (Friday and Saturday)
• Learn to cook (yeah, the microwave has been my friend for years!)

Until Next Time,

Just be you

Malanb

Me+Mom+Oprah = wow

I had the fab opportunity to attend Oprah's Lifeclass with my mom. There was so many people who was nice, caring, and present in the moment of learning, loving, and coming to term with the truth. I am working on my vision, my truth, and my journey to be my full self.  Welcome to what I learn in Oprah's Lifeclass! 

Me at Radio City! 

My mom and I at Radio City in NYC. A nice OWn Staffer took this photo with my photo. 

Here is Oprah! She gave away her shoes to a audience member. 

What I learned

 Difficulty is just for the moment. I have the power to change. I don't like the way I look so tomorrow I am going to lose weight. No more talking. I am going to do it. Courage is feeling the fear and doing it anyway. I been telling myself that I deserved all the bad things that happened to me but I did not deserve it. I am smart, beautiful, and worth all the great times that will and are happening to me.

The story I am telling myself I am dumb foolish and I am a failure. I am not. Everyday that passes, I have more confidence than the day before. I am going to divorce this story of pity, regret, and sadness. My new story has begun.

Action plan

I need a strategy - My Strategy is to focus on myself, my vision and believing in myself

I need the right story - My new story is that I am a writer/blogger working on my craft and my craft/gift will help me fulfill my dream and live a full life without financial struggle

I need a different state of mind - Pity, Fear, and Self doubt is no longer apart of my story

I have to change my state when I open my eyes and when I live my home. State gives you certainty. I need to choose whether my story is a triumph or a tragedy. I have to turn my fear into power because power is faith. I have a general inside me. Business is for gladiators. I am a gladiator. 

Day 1 - Living a healthier and happier life!

 So I have decided to start focusing on my  my mind, body, and career. 

For My Mind: For over 10 years I suffer from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder), Anxiety, and Depression. I was going to therapy but I had stop due to financially and personal reasons. Well the good news is that I am back in therapy. With help from my new therapist, I am finding new ways to great through my emotional issues. 

For my Body: I been obese for a while now.  I am aware that my current weight is not good for my health especially with my asthma and allergies. So I am determined and motivated to Live a Healthier Lifestyle. This is not going to be easy for me but Today is the day. Watching how much I eat is key to being a healthier me. I am also starting to be more active in my life. I am starting off today with yoga. Right now I am using Yoga: Just My Size With Megan Garcia. I hope to join a yoga class in the near future.  Practicing yoga, walking, and engaging in new types of activities will help me reach my goal of being a healthier person. 

For my Career: I am a freelance writer and a full time blogger. I usually work from home but it is very hard for me to stay focus on my work when I worrying about what I need to do around the house or receiving calls, emails, and messages while I am working. So starting Monday, the public Library is my new best friend. 5 days week, I will have my nose in my laptop, books, and everything that will help me build my brand and my business.  So I am happy to announce that you will see more from my blogs Heavy on Fashion, Milan Malan Word on The Street, My YouTube channel and of course Just MalanB. I am finally focusing on developing my name, my brand, and my career! 

I am happy that you all will be joining me on this journey to living a healthier and happier life. 

Goals, DReam, Beach, and Sand

I had such a relaxing, silly, drama full weekend. Yes, I don't know how a person can do this but I did! Man, I went to a club at the shore called Madison! Well, I think it is called Madison. Anyway, it was a nice club but the music was not on point. Some people were acting crazy. I am trying no to go into details but some ladies were acting very foolish in the club. Otherwise, I chilled and had some silly moments with my family.

Then I got to go to the shore. I miss the shore. Once you are ashore baby, you never go back. I hope that I will make it in the writing industry so I can move back to the beach with the sand in my toes and my eyes on the water.
The city life is not for me. Great to visit, even to explore for a year or two but not to live. Just me. I love the city for the beauty and creativity in it. You have to be harder to live in the city. To survive in the city. Your skin has to be thick and your dreams untouchable. I just not there yet. I wonder of I ever will! Only time will tell!